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極其詭異的天氣,短短幾個小時內,從豔陽高懸直至窗外伸手不見五指,被大霧包圍,有一種與世隔絕的迷離,感覺再怎麼機關算盡,都走不出這棟煙鎖重樓。



氣象怎麼報?新聞怎麼說?最近與電視漸行漸遠,連網路資訊都覺紛擾,彷彿不小心按下神秘開關,整個人呈現閉鎖狀態,重新開機也枉費。



端坐在此,彷彿能感染些許仙氣 - 這樣的辦公室,畜養著心緒總是漫天狂舞的我,還能不能算人傑地靈?



近日不大寫得出東西,身心俱疲的陰影,濃濃罩住自己,說不出究竟是平靜或停滯,連慌亂的力氣都無。



頭暈胃寒腳冰,戰鬥指數降到零,同事恩賜的烤地瓜,在深藍外套裏埋得極深,根莖類植物的圓潤線條和粗糙表皮,隔著牛皮紙袋直透手心,一股香甜漫在森冷空調中,顯得不合時宜,黃澄內在袒露於蒼白日光燈下,像是最不想被照見的心事洩了底。



咦,胃不舒服能吃蕃薯嗎?來不及幫這問題的答案理出頭緒,手上食物已然成為昨日黃「瓜」。



隨著截稿日逐步逼近,我卻感覺自身氣數將盡。善待聽覺,似乎是最後的自我救贖之道。



Getz/Gilberto專輯的樂聲在耳機迴盪,閱讀著英譯歌詞,款款情意,似乎也要隨著海風搖擺起來:



Tall and tan, young and lovely

The girl from Ipanema goes walking

And when she passes

Each boy she passes goes "aah!"



When she walks she's like a samba

That swings so cool and sways so gentle

That when she passes

Each boy she passes goes "aah!"



Oh, but I watch her so sadly

How can I tell her I love her

Yes, I would give my heart gladly

But each day when she walks to the sea

She looks straight ahead not at me



Tall and tan, young and lovely

The girl from Ipanema goes walking

And when she passes

I smile but she doesn't see

She doesn't see



Oh, but I watch her so sadly

How can I tell her I love her

Yes, I would give my heart gladly

But each day when she walks to the sea

She loos straight ahead not at me



Tall, tan, young, lovely

The girl from Ipanema goes walking

And when she passes

I smile but she doesn't see,

She doesn't see

Oh, she just doesn't see

She doesn't see

She doesn't see



一切無心插柳,當年基於唱片銷售市場考量,製作人Creed Taylor希望除了既有的葡萄牙文吟唱,能另有英語版本融合其中,吉他手João Gilberto的夫人Astrud Gilberto,毫無職業演唱經驗,於Stan Getz堅持下,卻成為這首乃至專輯中其他曲目的女聲主唱,溫柔不造作.近於呢喃的唱腔,為歌曲增色甚多,Bossa Nova能順利推至全球,此歌功不可歿,Astrudn的嗓音魅力,更有著絕對舉足輕重的象徵意義。



引發作曲者Antonio Carlos Jobim和作詞家Vinicius de Moraes靈感的十八歲女孩,名喚Héloisa Pinheiro。此張唱片歷久彌新,連村上春樹都為此著迷,因之如是言:「她永遠是十八歲,又冷又溫柔的伊帕內瑪女孩......如今依然繼續走在灼熱的沙灘上,直到最後一張唱片磨平為止,她會永遠不停地繼續走著。」真希望,我也能轉身變成Garota de Ipanema,在Rio de Janeiro瀟瀟灑灑,讓人見之難忘,走出那樣的地久天長。



可我依舊,只是個蹲踞在關渡濕地,為稿債苦惱的俗人,得過且過,與無以名之的哀愁搏鬥,逐漸失卻,美麗的可能性......。



或許我在期待,生命的陰錯陽差,將我推向Astrud Gilberto和Héloisa Pinheiro那種碰撞,迸射不可預知的火花。

















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